Road 8: I'm Awesome ;)

If you're a close friend you have probably heard me say this a lot of times by now, "I'm Awesome". A lot of times friends have told me that I'm self obsessed. Some just ignore it with a "blaah" while sometimes I have actually convinced people that I am indeed 'awesome'. Last night when I used the line once again a friend asked me, "WHY!?? Why are you like this?"
So, here. I have decided to answer why I am like this, because I thought it might actually help a lot of people regardless of whether they know me or not.

Have you ever been in an embarrassing situation and covered it up with a lie just to save yourself? And whenever similar situation arises you cover it up with the exact same lie. For a while your conscience pricks you about lying but soon enough this lie becomes a part of you and you actually start believing in it.

Jake was a lot more obese for his age at school. When other kids teased him for being fat he told them it was a medical problem that adds more mass to his body. Everyone felt sorry about teasing him and they stopped. Jake knew that there was really no medical problem but it helped him save all the embarrassment. So from then on everytime someone picked on him for being fat he had an answer ready. Soon enough this lie was a part of his system.
It is something like the "All izz well" concept in the movie "3 idiots". You lie to your heart about something and soon it starts believing that all is actually well.
The longer you stretch a lie, the more and more it becomes a part of you.

Coming back to the main point. There was a time in my life when I felt lonely and miserable. I just stayed all by myself in my room, my laptop being my only companion. All I needed was some motivation. Just to kill time I started watching the sitcom How I Met Your Mother and that's when I heard this phrase for the first time coming from the character Barney Stinson, "I'm Awesome". Inspired by the immense self confidence this character shows in himself, I told myself, "I'm Awesome". I knew it was lie but I just kept pushing it.
I pushed myself out of my room for the first time in weeks because I told myself, "I'm Awesome".
I pushed myself to go out with my friends even though I really didn't feel like because I told myself, "I'm Awesome".
I pushed myself to the nearest karaoke night and sung my heart out because I told myself, "I'm Awesome".
I pushed my spirits up whenever I felt low just by a mere, "I'm Awesome". I'd tell myself, "Awesome that you are, how could you possibly feel low?"

Its more than an year now after these events took place and the lie I once told myself has now become an integral part of me. Is it still a lie? I don't know. All I do know is that it is my source of immense self confidence. No matter what life throws at me I believe I can face it and come up with a solution, even to the ugliest of the problems because that's exactly what awesome people do, right? I think the entire idea, no matter how crazy and unrealistic it sounds, worked out for me.
At the end of the day I am motivated and more importantly SELF MOTIVATED. Motivation is really powerful if it comes from within your ownself. One cannot and should not rely on others for motivating them.

That's Road 8 folks.

Something that you tell yourself, even if it is a lie, after some time becomes a part of you. So even if it sounds stupid or lame, tell yourself, "I'm Awesome". Stick to it for a really long time under all the circumstances life throws at you. At the end of the day you will turn out to be awesome and it won't be a lie anymore.

Yes, I'm Awesome, are you?